Saturday, November 4, 2006
WOOOH... BEFORE It's in such a mess that i don't know how to pack it after i've unpacked everything.HAHAHAS. AFTER hoho,i don't know what's the outcome.because i have a weird habit of packing my room.i never really pack it.i mean,i clean it and all.vacuum a bit?!hell noisy.ya,i actually mop it!hahas.i just pack everything into some boxes or what?!i don't know.should i get rid all the end-of-year papers?!?!?!hehes.whatever.will be back later : D
i'm soooo gonna get soooo emo in this particular blog post.
ok,so what's with me and her?i don't know.seriously.i think our characters are from two different worlds.COMPLETELY DIFFERENT that is.i don't know what is the BIG reason you didn't want to come school.but i have this feeling it has got something to do with me.and,we both know we're just putting on an act at times.WEIRD ehh?the way life is.so i tried talking to elliotz about it.oh gosh,i'm not trying to flirt him,for goodness sake.just for those who don't know.i have a boyfriend,edison chen!hahahas.so elliotz told me that being friends,we have to set aside our differences when we're together.i thought about it for long.really long.how long?i don't know.
maybe i should really try harder.the roots of all problems,i figured,lies with me,and not her.so i should learn to give in and accept her,for who she is.and that's her.she's my friend,yes,my friend.why can't i treat her like how i treat the rest?!seriously,i think it's character.told ya,our characters seem to be from 2 different planets.just like lovers.what happens when both parties realised that they've had enough of each other's stupid tantrums and all?when they realised that they have problems in trusting each other and that their characters make the relationship sour?i think they will just let go.i mean,when it's all so hard....why not let go?and continue searching for that someone...and ya,just don't let history repeat itself.
so,how about friends?i think friends and couples are really different.friends,they mean a lot.more than your other half at times?who do you turn to when you need help?your friends,i believe.yes,your friends.it's time to cast our differences aside and really be detemined to salvage this friendship.i promise i'll try real hard.
i know i've been mean at times.sometimes,i don't know who is it at fault.and other times,we can just be relaly nice to each other again.i think we're really putting on an act.and obviously,at this point of time,nothing is falling into places.and seriously,i think i'm getting really short-tempered and have conniptions fit at times.weird la.trying use this new word i've just learnt.is it correct?anyway,let me bring you back to the week when we were having our end-of-year exams.i remebered that we wanted to go to east point to find ms si and the rest.and you just had to insist that i'll talk to xinghuei.isn't it weird?!the way you do things.and i tried assuring you that i won't neglect you.i mean,why can't i talk to her?!she's also my friend.and i told you that i wil hard NOT to neglect you.and when i finally bursted,i said,'fine,if that's what you want,i'll talk to her.happy?'.and you cried.i'm not blaming you for crying.seriously.
what pissed me off was that,throughout the WHOLE bus journey,did you even talk to me like more than 5 times?!please!you were talking to felicia all the time ok!and the best part.don't know who,maybe you,maybe her,maybe me,suggested that we should scare xinghuei and joel at the mrt station.and guess what did both of you did?i was taken aback by whta you all did.'ok,you stand in the centre to look out for xinghuei.we go stand at the corner.'.fcuk.so i was like a damn fool,standing in the centre,ALONE.whereas,you were chatting happily with her at the corner.and guess who left who out in the end?!i wonder.who felt more neglected?i wonder again.who complained that she'll be neglected and in the end,it didn't happen?cos apparently,you had felicia by your side,all along.so you think that it was my fault?!fine,and i really enjoy talking to xinghuei.cos i won't feel sooo left out.fullstop.ok,enough.really,enough.
ok,so i'll try very hard.and i hope that you'll really give me a chance.i need time,seriously.anyway,to someone else's blog,i'm really glad that you have broke up with him.i'm happy not because i'm mean(huh?),but because i think you should have done that long ago.simply because,if he doesn't treasure,i don't see why you should try soo hard.i mean,i know he's your boyfriend and all.but trust me,no boyfriend ever tells his own girlfriend that you're fat and you need to lose weight.i don't get it.seriously.i think this is from a really old entry.but somehow,i couldn't get it out of my head.yes,i feel sorry for you.very.i doubt you know who am i and that i read your blog.but yes,i read it,often.although i've never been in a relationship before,but i've learnt so much about being in a relationship,from your blog.all the stuff your partner says,just seems so hurting.never mind,i'm getting really emotional here.hahas.it's really boring.
i'm ALL ALONE at home.erm,with my brother?!SIANXSXSXS.
i'm packing my room,apparently,yes,that's the case.wanna see the mess?
If you can see,my bed is naked.
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